Divabetic shares ‘Diagnosis to DIVA’ stories from members of our community in the hope of inspiring you to GLAM MORE, FEAR LESS. In her latest blog post, Taryn shares more about her experience coping with the ‘numbers game’ associated with diabetes in the second part of her ‘The All-Important Membership in the 7.0 Club’ post:
Then it happened. I fell off the proverbial wagon, and my numbers started rising. It was awful. Even after, I was back on track my numbers were still high after a normal “approved” meal. I couldn’t understand it. If I ate too much of the wrong thing, I could understand seeing a high number. However, seeing a high number after a “perfect” meal is beyond frustrating. I started to panic, but I still had a few weeks before I could get in to see my doctor. I had recently switched to insulin, and I had discovered how differently the insulin works with the body compared to my old medicines. I was learning that with insulin you really need to be at a good number before the meal or it will climb too high.
This adjustment hasn’t been easy. I recently saw my doctor who has explained that my weight gain from falling off the wagon and starting insulin has caused me to have more insulin resistance. What a vicious circle! You take insulin to help you control your Diabetes, and in turn gain weight that makes it harder to use insulin! I can’t blame it all on the insulin, as much as I would like to.
Why do we feel so much shame when our Diabetes management isn’t working? This is something that makes Diabetes unlike other diseases. If someone’s chemotherapy wasn’t working correctly, we wouldn’t blame the patient. But, if a Diabetic’s treatment plan is working well, we are very quick to point the finger at the person in question. This seems really unfair, and we need to learn how to rise above the judgment that we feel from ourselves and from others. We need to let go of the shame that we feel when we see a “bad” number or if we ate something that was “bad”. This shame isn’t helping anyone. If anything, it is the very thing that will lead us back to an unhealthy path. I hope that the day will come when our A1C isn’t used as a tool to measure the “compliance” of a person with Diabetes. It’s a useful measurement, but it isn’t the only one. If we can look inside ourselves and reconnect with our Diva Spirit, we will see remember that a simple medical test cannot define our self-worth. We are amazing people who are trying every single day to improve our health. We want to be healthy and we make good choices many times each day. Let’s focus on what we are doing right, and stop the shaming, even if it is in our own minds.
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